Wild side - day 2

Thought of the day - Remixing is not coping ...and nothing is completely original - And tonight I started my walk on the wild side!



I'm really sorry for the terrible blog.. I am super tired and...  - but couldn't allow myself not to do one. Tomorrows will be better ( promise) well I hope anyway.




                                                                                 Jade

Balance

My dad has always told me that everything in life is all about BALANCE. And the more I think about it, the more I think he is right.

We all need time to rest and prepare for what the next day is going to bring. We all need an element of fun and an element of surprise. We all want the good stuff all the time, because otherwise we complain we are bored! But surely we need some of the rubbish stuff to make us really appreciate the good stuff when it happens!?

That's just my thought of the day! -  Considering how much balance we require!

                                                                          Jade

wild side

I need to take a walk on the wild side...

before its too late, and I'm 'old'... but what if I'm scared? What if I'm not meant to try new things, that are considered bad?! I've always thought that it was others perceptions of me, that didn't allow me to make the wrong decisions and that I always had to be 'miss perfect'. But maybe its just me - too up to tight to do anything I shouldn't! 

But what if its not me!? What if I don't enjoy getting drunk! To be a mess! In the sense where I can't control it! Having no control is scary. What will happen???. You can no longer look after ones self - and to rely on another is too much to ask really.

Like a good wise friend told me the other day. Friends aren't meant to DO anything... its only what we've decided they should do and how they should behave. Like most things in life, we have decided collectively what is right and wrong. Society tells us, what we can get away with and what we cannot. These rules we have in forced put a lot of pressure on us as individuals, which can be too much sometimes.

But on the positive side, I'm making plans, by taking baby steps on the wild side! Hopefully it will work out! And I'll experience something new...

                                                                         Jade

Affection

The feeling of being trapped and suffocated, is a fear I've always had! In the physical sense as well as emotionally. I guess that's why I'm not big on the whole hug thing. Or affection for that matter. It takes a lot for me to think about hugging someone. I guess that makes me selfish in that sense,but why do I feel like this?

do hugs make us vulnerable? 

Growing up, I was pretty independent, and confident and didn't feel the need for constant reassurance, but recently I fear that is all I'm seeking. The approval that I've done good in something. That I've made them proud for just a second. I dread disappointing and put pressure on myself to achieve and do the best I know I can do! But what if I'm not meant to to do well?Why can't I deal with pressure. I find my mind shutting off and I can do nothing but think. And sometimes that's even too much...

How can I create something beautiful, if I can't think or feel beautifully? (Or does that matter? )
All I know is, I want what I  ever I produce, to be positive in some way -So  I've got the intention, but relying on others to help , is a pretty big ask, I just find myself unable to portray my message, without their assistance! Ah man, fingers crossed that this week some magic is made in some way or another! I have no idea what will happen, but maybe that is magic in itself...?!

                                                                                      Jade

hand writing

my 'new' hand writing

How much does hand writing say about a person? Does it define what sort of person you are?

Hand writing is something that cannot be taught. You can be shown the basics, but ultimately it is down to the individual to decide how they present their words. I myself never really thought about my writing. As long as I could read it, it was fine.
At school, my writing improved over the years like most people, I guess. And I always thought of it as neat an pretty nice. It wasn't until I asked a friend whether she liked it, and she responded that it looked like a school girls writing that I began to doubt my opinion. - This then made me think about the way I write and different peoples opinions....

However, recently ( ever since I started this new blog actually) my writing has changed! It has become a lot smaller and scribberly I guess. When I noticed this I presented a page of notes to the same friend that I had consulted previously... and she loved it! That much she asked me to write her something - so she could feel it! ( But I won't go into that, now)

And another peer, told me that she could imagine a whole life time story that went with it! Something along the  lines of:  A lodge in the countryside, with an old table and a fire... it goes on a little bit more, but I can't remember it.

My point is, I find it so amazing, how people can get so much from someone's hand writing. A whole story in fact!

Before I started to think about this topic more deeply, I just thought that it was good to have neat hand writing, but you were considered either lazy or intelligent ( Doctor ) or an Artist, if it was unreadable.

And how no two peoples are the same.., right?


                                                                         Jade

following on...

starting point 

these are just my words...

Following on from my last blog... I was inspired by a photograph of Kylie Minogue from the magazine Stylist. Now it wasn't so much the person, it was what it represented to me! What does the photo say? The pose, body language etc.

I therefore photocopied the image in black and white and began to scribble words onto various areas as seen >
I then wrote about what I thought the image represented and how I could use it as inspiration for my latest little project.

This week coming up.. I am planning on letting my peers loose with some paints. Not to go crazy but to hopefully create something like this.

I want to photography people, like with the post about hands, - I'm thinking of broadening it!

There are so much you can say with a strong image, and words. So I must now spend the weekend re watching all the interviews, sifting through all the dialogue and picking the words that reflect my project and the people best.

Wish me luck,

Jade

just words

Its said that people can relate to words. More so words that come from the heart. And words that actually REALLY mean something to the person writing them. Today I have been getting creative, with my old art peer.

We have been experimenting with ideas, and researching artists too! We tried some ideas below. Who knows they could be a good starting point with displaying my message.

more words required!!!

hands are still looking sparse

lets make a difference together


Jade